Why

 Master Abraham Lincoln signed the Emancipation Proclamation on the day of the 22nd, the month of September, the year of 1862. There were those who opposed a person having freedom from being owned by anyone. And there were those who thought they had the right to own people as a property as a thing. Those things that were held as slaves are now freed and are no longer a property to others but a individual person. Many people were separated from their loved one, they were taken from their homeland and held captive for years.

Now all of a sudden those held as slaves are now free with nothing, only a promise of land that was given but then taken away and given back to the slave owners leaving our ancestors with nothing but a offer to continue to work for Masser for little to nothing. Nowhere to go, and no money’s to leave and look for a better place. No money’s to buy a bud ticket let alone some land and a home. 

Now all of a sudden masser wants money for you sleeping in the barn with the animals. All day long we work masser fields and can’t grow our own. So masser sells us his left overs that he can’t sell at the market. He tell us we can eat the food he throw out, but it will cost us. He take it away from the money we work for before he give it to us. We lucky to get a penny from all the work we do, sun up to sun down. 

We no longer there, we don’t need masser or his ways. All we need is to live separate but equal on our own land away from masser and his ways of death hell and destruction. We still running to the poles supporting those who oppress people. We give them the power to use us like slaves and robots with no minds to think without them. The whips and chains gone but the fears still lives inside of us because masser still sits on his throne, and we the people keep him and his kind up there. We will go to war and kill for Masser with no clear understanding of why.

Freedom to roar

When I can no longer hold in all my grief pain frustration and suffering, allow me the space to scream and cry. Don’t judge me and call me crazy. If I only scream and cry and ask why, and I have hurt no on, but I’m hurting inside, please let me scream and cry and run up and down the isle and openly express what I can’t articulate in words. When I was in the church, I really wanted to please this one called god. But god let me down and you can’t explain it away, at least not for me, remember our relationship is personal, it is not your business what I have asked of him, this one you seem to know all so well. I can’t seem to validate him so I choose to be done. 

A church I went to allowed me to really vent. To roar like the lion, to stomp my feet and let it all out side of me. I can now breath, I been holding my breath because of stress and anxiety. I been going thru life not really living. And now you tell me you want judge me, you want throw my past in my face and as soon as you open up your magic book that’s supposed to make all my hurt and pain go away and give me a better way of life, you are condemning me from a book in the name of god, for the way I have lived, if it’s done, let it be done don’t bring it up no more.  I killed no one, what life was taken, we all should rejoice if a new child is born, forget the circumstances, there are so few of us. 

God killed so many of our ancestors in the name of love!!!! What is this thing we call love?????? What is it????     

 I don’t know what to believe. I only know what I have lived and soon I began to see your god as part of the problems, fabricated to hide the identity of the one who told IT. 

We constantly bicker for someone who is not here just to use his name to have our way.  Back in the day, if you wanted to get away with a crime, say I did it for god. Say god told me to do it and if you were white you walked, if you were black, you may have been framed then hanged. Today is different, most medical professionals know god is in your head, and the crime is in your heart, delusional. In other words you on your own or your way to a mental jail for the criminally insane because they know if god really did exist he is now dead and gone, kinda like that Jim Jones man. But the name of god is still used today because there are so many followers who really believe without a doubt god is real with not one piece of evidence to support their theory other than a book written by a king who was looking for others to support his way of life, kinda like the president thing or government. We are looking for those who are willing to kill in the name of god for a little piece of money. God made promises to people and because many even today want that seat right of the throne. God, throne, king throne and we still want believe he was just a natural man.

Many stand up for the name god and not the man, many kill in the name of god without his presence even being required, because killing is the only thing for god and the only thing he seemed to respect. Many lie and say god told them to do it so they could get away with a crime, judge in on it because it was part of a brotherhood like the KKK,  but hell we allow it because we afraid. We really know it’s all a brotherhood of white allegiance to remain pure and enslave the rest of the population. 

All great things will come to an end. No matter how many years we torment others in the name of a god who no longer lives, this too one day shall pass. Those enslaved shall be free

Put up or shut up

 What has any president ever done so great for me that I would consider putting it all on the line for him.

Since a woman has never held the office of the White House I can safely say him. I don’t stand to gain anything from simply voting for him. 

Will I have to continue to pay added cost to my bills, Taxes. Will a dollar item still cost me more, Taxes. Is there a place I can afford to live, will this finally be home to me, can I root myself here or will this be another month to month while I pray I find something I can really afford or even bigger, my own home, my own land, I can finally root myself here until I’m safely gone. Can you deliver?

I forgot to pay my taxes, what taxes, but I own this land, it is paid for, I should not have to pay another penny to anyone on it. But wait, they will throw you off this land if they don’t get their cut. What the hell is a cut, Taxes.

What am I to do, my land paid for, once I pay my bills nothing left, I pay taxes on everything I buy, why the hell I have to pay taxes on what I already own.

That’s just the system, you have to pay taxes on any property you own, but why do I have to pay taxes on what I already paid for.

You just do, that is the law, whose law. Well the law that was presented to your fucking ass telling you, if you don’t give me my muther fucking cut I will take everything you own.

So what you telling me is I never really own it as long as I have to give that muther fucker his got damn cut.

Fuck his cut, what the hell he need to do is stop breaking and entering into peoples homes and ruffing up and killing them. No one should get my money before I do or tell me I own they stank ass what I worked for. No, I feel raped and robbed, left naked with nothing at all when they are done. If you don’t want to be raped and robbed by that ban of thieves then give them their cut to guarantee you your safety. Who gone keep me safe from them. Well currently there is no one, everyone is trying hard to keep them safe.

How can a person keep you safe from them, when they are the greatest threat to you. When clearly they are telling you, if you don’t, or want give me my cut I will turn my dogs a loose on you. Dogs with weapons of mass destruction.

How can you say to them who take no for an answer and refuse to be let go. we don’t need your services any longer, in fact you are the greatest problem the single most threat to my way of life...if you the only one saying it, you fine. But if too many people side with you, your days are now numbered and when they kill you the rest will go sit down. And many carry a weapon for work for this company...

Enough with the underworld killing us off and saying it is ok and many weeping softly while being told it is ok. 

We overcame, But!!!

 We as a people have overcome many things in this life the only thing we can’t seem to do right is get along....

Why can’t we get along sis, hell if I know, we act like spoiled children who want our way, hell I want my way to. I want many things for myself and the people I care about and the world of people who surround me. I want us to overcome what we already overcame. 

Let’s look at the past as promise not to repeat all the mistakes that have led us where we live today. We can’t get along because our life seems to be set on repeat, the next generation repeat, when will we skip past the things that have gotten us here and let others alone, cover your face and not even speak, stay six feet apart and there will be healing in the lands.

Healing from viral infections, healing from being angry, we really do need a six week shut the power off the grid. No one show up for work of a kind of week...

No travels except calls for help.

Food supplies rationed by the size of your family not your wallet, no meat, just eggs and what is on the shelf. If we keep on playing with confusion it will soon come. If we keep on playing with conflict it will blow down the door. We really do need a cooling off from seeing people who don’t matter at all to us day after day who are rude for no reason and don’t seem to give a fuck. We need to dismiss all smiles and partial smiles and grins with a mask when you are allowed out. If you can’t cover your face stay home and let your supplies be delivered, we not even deep in this pandemic and people still don’t seem to give a fuck about the medical staff that are skating on thin ice and the ice is getting thinner and thinner and suddenly they have moved to a county that is not taken over by the underworld who live by Thanos rules and we still can’t see it...

My who life has been interesting, but that’s just my opinion

This year has been one of those intense years. Intense can lead to many things, and a ticked off people against trigger happy people. Some fight one way and others another. 

The Africans always went to father and allow him to decide. Then suddenly father and brother and mother were gone and there was just a few of you left and they were all men standing around you, saving you for themselves. 

I can’t say if a Democrat could have done any better than a Republican one this last couple of years. I can’t say having them in office has made too much a difference in my life. My life is still being dictated to me and many are still being killed openly with all the technology being used to show us what will happen if we get outta line.

Things have not changed that much at all. People are still killing each other and getting away with it. People still can’t stay home and make a living with a college degree, or a permission slip from the government that expires once a year and has to be renewed. Why do I have to get permission from anyone to do what I want on my own property. 

And now I have the information that is needed online to get the help I need to do projects. I don’t need you help so why am I being charged by the government to build a house, why I need permission, to start a business, permission slip, to drive a car, permission slip. Registering a car should be done when the car is purchased. There should be a one time registering of the vehicle and a tag in place when the car is sold off the lot.  Everything has a cost and should it not. The cost is so high to keep your family together it is tearing many families apart. And we still argue and don’t get it, we are all slaves not unless you are a part of the group that causes all these problems, and make decisions that only affect us, the people. If they don’t have to live by it neither do I. The moment you make me live by something you don’t live by and lock me away and take all my stuff and throw it away keeping the good stuff. For driving to fast without killing anyone or causing an accident, speed recorders should not be used by anyone, away with the radar guns. 

And prices are forever on the rise, so they can get their cut, how do some people need to feel content. We as a nation have lost compassion for others who lost a loved one. We are immune to seeing death. And crave it so badly, we watch shit like Jason and Michael Myers and fall asleep with it playing in your head over and over all night long and we wonder why we worse than the lion, the lion looking for food. But humans looking for a prey because they have seen to much Jason and shit and to many shoot em up games that are the most popular one. Talk about a mind that need a good douche, and not summers eve. A time away from electronics, drive into a neighborhood and see if you make it out alive.  But please enough with the Jason shit, we need HELP because killing is the most popular thing on the news and television shows and reality shows they threatening someone else life and being out right nasty to each other to the tune of if you were on fire I want even spit on you. I do hope she would call 911. Just snazzy to say, supposed to make us tough when we talk snazzy shit to each other, but it can make you laugh to.

Too much snazz with someone that doesn’t know you can be dangerous, you never know if you dealing with a predator. They blend in, they look like every other human on this planet. They walk upright, they need food, air and water just to live, but they are a different breed. They will kill you the moment you do or say something to tic them off and they got pleasure in killing you and can just let it go. You could have called them a fool or something. What if fool is the word that was used every time someone did something horrible to them and no one believed them and they had to go back to that and now they are punished because they told and one day they no longer feel. What makes a predator, maybe lots of damaging things to turn someone into a killer. 

There was a time when people were dragged out of their home and killed on site for whatever, let’s say charged with being alive. The door was kicked in and a group of men would rush into your home and tie your hands behind your back before hanging you from a tree. That practice was outlawed, bone shaking. Cars were shot up, people were dragged behind horses, all because they were considered your property. No such thing, human trafficking and a lot more of those Bible ways have been let go. We were freed but we are still being held captive.

We continue to see over and over again what will happen to you if you get in our way. We can and will do whatever we want to you and get away with if you get out of line and don’t even think about coming up we will tar and feather you if you think about walking away from me, I will make your life miserable if you don’t do as I say. Only thing is it’s not being said, but it’s what’s happening all over the place. If you get in our way we will kill you, come out and say it and please we are free. We don’t have to pay taxes and we want our fourth acres pronto and to be left alone. 

Women are being given hysterectomies without their consent. Or did they sign it as a part of a release and not knowing it and are now being held until the procedure is done???

We don’t know why they hold them so long and they seem to never go to trial. It’s the same customs many suffer from in many lands that hold them for nothing until they die, no justice, many are innocent in jail waiting trial. 

All I have seen is more laws that tell us we don’t have control over our life. Just because it was put into writing does not mean it is right. Unfair practices against another for gain should be done away with but that would cause a war with those who refuse to give up the power they have over us. They rather kill us than let us go because they consider us their property. What would our freedom cost us, our freedom gave us nothing. All our ancestors had work and not one red penny, just your freedom. Nothing to help you on you journey, not even a bus ticket so you could look for the sister that was sold, of the children that were sold, not even a handkerchief. Nothing was given, but you were told, you can continue to live here and work for me and I still want pay you. You should be paying me for sleeping in the barn, as a matter of fact you can work my fields and that should cover it.

We were let go by Abraham Lincoln with nothing, no one, strangers all around. Coming here in chains around your fucking neck and not understanding any thing that is being said and being poked at and probed and held like an animal because you had not been broke yet. Sex was next, sex with anyone they wanted to keep and break. Rape them while they scream no and beat them before sex, during sex, after sex and keep food away from them.

Place a chain on their neck and tie them out from the place where you live and they will soon learn how to appreciate you.

And then suddenly people were set free with nowhere to go and nothing at all, and were told they could not nest in the woods. And if they don’t have a job they will be arrested and they better not gang up and stand around talking to each other and no large crowds and there was nowhere to go with nothing. Not even the clothes that you made from the left over cloth from masser wife. And all the clips of threat she had you to sweep up in a pile and tell you that you can have it if you dig it out of the trash.

And that gal did dig the thread and cloth from the trash and she was the woman who took all that threat and cloth she dug out of the trash and made clothes with it only to have her ideals stolen and used by others to make money they want share with her as she make dress after dress and shirt and slacks. But they would allow you a place to sleep outside in the barn.

I plan to stop watching tv as long as I can during the day. I’m going to try and watch only thirty minutes with very little news. I will change channels and give each channel a few minutes. I’m tired or watching what masser doing to people on tv and then getting away with and the government is the one who gives them permission to keep us in line because they the only ones who prosper.

I’m going to get quiet and listen to my own got damn thoughts because I can’t express myself to the news. They have everything to tell us but during that time we can’t talk back with them and they just sit there like robots day after day not giving a damn about what is going on around them. News stations continue to cover the killings day after day because that’s what we wanna see. I guess we like looking at killings we have become immune to it and don’t even know it. We just afraid it will happen to us and will there ever be justice, what gone happen to the killer who wore a badge and had been given the go ahead and kill me at will and I got your back with my military. Trained in the art of killing and are willing to kill at my command, prompt. These are my best robots. 

Many people have witnessed open killings brought by the police and they now live in fear that the same thing will happen to them if they open their mouth. So the crime goes unpunished and the same black and white cat drive thru the neighborhood all day long making you fell threatened.

We are in a constant state of fear and anger and we hold it all inside and hide the way we really feel by trying to be bold and blaming the one who got killed for not complying and calling the person bad because the news painted the picture so the killer can get away. 

We hold it all in, the fact that we afraid they will kill us and no compassion at all for the ones who have to bury their loved one. We have tried so hard to be like masser, we now act and think like masser, we well trained and house broken too...

A phone rings and someone on the other ends says come quick something bad has happened to your most dear loved ones. We should as a mother cherish the life of our children more than anything on this planet, we should love them so much we will go up side that head when we know they wrong. 

Body cams are capturing all kind of demented shit that we clearly can see for ourselves and the perp still get off. There was a time when we didn’t have body cams. Now body cams are being used to show public execution. And we watch the whole thing and they still get off. And the message is clear, the same thing will happen to you if you get in our way, don’t get out of line.