What is a sacrifice anyways

 If you think taking a life will make your heart stronger...nope

Eat right and exercise and don’t sacrifice a life because it will not make you any stronger and you want live any longer...Unless

We don’t know what a sacrifice was, and we don’t know how long mankind has been sacrificing young and we don’t really know what a sacrifice was meant for. It could have been for the sole purpose of harvesting organs so they or someone they love and worship may live a bit longer...

Harvesting organs may have been why the young was sacrificed in the first place. Maybe to extend the life of ones they called god, the ones who were scientists and alchemist and magicians and sorcerers and great footers. Everyone seems to have a price tag, and organs have an even greater price tag. The dead ain’t worth shit. 

We don’t know why so many young children have went missing, we just know they gone and have not come back. We don’t know who scooping them up, not all white vans are picking up helpless children and taking them off. A white van is what coroners use. Mortician and EMT’s and officers and doctors and people with greater knowledge than round the block Bob would have to remove a heart.

I pray that such places and people are exposed and brought to the open...throw the sheets off of them...open the coffins and let the dead scream from their grave for vengeance against them, that they shall be persecuted before the law and brought to justice. None should be murdered that others may live, but if someone has no chance at all, then you still have the right to say no, because we just don’t know. I want to trust others until they give me reason not to. But because of all the things I see day after day, I live in fear of others, I just have no choice but to believe in them and hope and pray they mean me no ham as I too mean them no harm, I know I’m not alone and that helps me to trust in others until I can’t anymore.

This is another level of my insanity because of what people are capable of life has made me more afraid and more aware. The more aware I am the more afraid I become and then my anxiety sets in and soon my fear of a predator stealing my life or the life of those I love most....

When I think to deep I freeze us all

I look to my left for a man to be there at that moment when I need the advice of an educated man, a mate, a partner, a friend, a lover...my love and many more things he will be if he pisses me off way to bad. A man my own age with a whole lot of things in common. 

I’m still maturing and aging and learning how to maintain my composure while in public. After all many of us look upon other humans as nothing more than an animal, a savage, a prey something that is not even worth living, how fucking dare you put a fucking price on the life of another. The most sacred thing on this planet....LIFE. Bang we are here....many planets elsewhere and we can’t get there to get away from the hateful, spiteful and evil things we do to one another, because boy oh boy it would not be far enough for plenty of folks like myself who tired of being treated like a prey. 

You can beat bet if we could leave Earth and go to another planet the ones who hate having Americans, for the simple of you born here upon these soils it is currently called USA you are American, but since we is so damn simple I will break it down, if you hate Native Americans, oh I’m native to America I was born here, please go a bit further so as to understand ones self better or think more clearly so I can mature a little more so maybe I can feel a bit settle in my sport. Ok, African Americans, native, Black American (born here, native), Chinese American, native, or Hispanic or Jews and please don’t forget the Whites that are native and born here, we are all classified as Americans. I say native I was born here around 1966 making me Native to the land. If all people came from Africa who is Native, we all Migrants living in a land held hostage by hate ignorance and fear upheld by a fraction called the government, the underworld but away with their harsh treatment of others this morning. I want give them any more light to help them shine. Because we all in the valley trying to get home, surrounded with wolves looking for prey. 

Any rate they would follow us and try and kill us all just for leaving the hate we have to endure and on a daily basis. The insanities we have to endure on a daily basis. I know I’m crazy ass hell. But it’s always a pleasure to know I’m not the only one, I know your are but what am I. Those who hate us most because of the color of skin, why? Most of us hate someone for a reason, a real hater hates for no reason and will kill for no reason other than it’s been taught as acceptable and if you work for us you can get away with killing because no one will come against us is how many think because they got all those hired gun. What is a hired gun, a person willing to kill for money when the order is given. And it is acceptable in the society I live in, if only knew of a shortcut to the moon, if only I knew a way to open a portal and travel to another place that I can live and breath in the air. And hopefully it want be filled with unkind folks who hate others because of something that can’t be helped.

How do we know people have not been traveling from planet to planet, how do we know the Moon and Mars and Venus and Pluto and all the planets didn’t USE to look like Earth and along came the humans, worse than spiders and the T Rex and the Crocks and Gators. Maybe we have been traveling for decades and destroying for decades . 

Maybe the earth itself the inside and the core are still growing or maturing to fast because of us and will one day be a big rock and we do so much to speed up the process. But remember we are in the digestive of the system we live in. Like we are on a big old seed, a sperm, we may be in prostate area or the ovaries. Is this system we live in male or female. I often wonder. This is how my mind works, it bounces from thing to thing and my body will try and keep up and the faster the better and I blame it on riding on fast things like cars and rides at fairs and amusement parks and commercials after short commercials keep the mind skipping and not slowing down to think.

We the people live inside the earth, the earth lives inside of something that mankind may be likened unto, like a shape or an object, I call that the system. In space I called that a galaxy. I feel we have many galaxies out there in the universe. 

Because of the difference of each planet I feel if there is life on that planet, beyond what we can see. I believe  it is different than what we see here. Now if the universe has no end then there would be no end to the darkness we would see if the sun were to go out. Oh the importance of something that is so very important. We would put it out if we could we so mad.

Or would the going out of the sun show other light. How does a no end work, but without sun the galaxies will soon freeze taking everything back to ice..

That’s how deep I think and it can be annoying...

Skipping along singing songs walking in this wonderful land

Good morning, it is yet another Monday, seems like time in the Earth is a fast rock skidding along on an ocean. Or a big boat cruising alone on the oceans of this galaxy, or digestive system we live in, I wonder what will our next stop be. What galaxy will we pass thru and is their any other life form like us in the universe, anymore galaxies that is. 

I feel the universe is never ending but has different galaxies occupying the space. With each galaxy having its own shape or a sphere far and near, and are we the only galaxy with our way of life in the universe

If I would call the earth an organ in the galaxy we are in it would be the colon, the waste system. We see it all here on Earth, mother's killing her young, father's killing their young. First place I read of such a great sacracife was the bible, some call it a test, God called it a meal. Maybe God came from a custom where it customary to eat the young to survive. The youngest child was sacracifed to save the rest because of how scarce food was because of where they had lived during the evolution of this planet.  And many only had children just in case there was nothing left to eat. How do we know, were we there, i did hear about the movie alive because I didn't want to see the pain associated with the movie. This is real life here they are talking about. If there was abscance of food everywhere we travel together I wonder how long before we do what those men had to do to survive. God told us how to prepare a little one. 

This past year has taught me one important thing. All the food could run out here in America because of the ones we vote for want to control supply to keep us in control. The president do not worry about any house but the white house. But we are more concerned with the white house than our house. We can't wait to try and run the white house. Our vote may count but our opinion don't mean shit. Why we the people can't vote on any new laws. They affect us and not them, the untouchables. They are all mob bosses, the underworld who created offices and laws and wars and take what ever I want type of thing that is real. 

All the following and watching them made them famous. We think it is good to be a bad person because they get more praise and do better in life when they are ruthless, just blow your head off type of person, kill a whole family, village, nation and I want stop killing until they are all dead and yell wow when it's done, what a rush. Ruthless type just waiting for someone to piss them off, tree on their should it's to big to be a chip.

Staying home has made me realize where most of my stresses come from. And now we are in the midst of expressing our feelings about equality in this country and many are like me, afraid because there is so much tendon here anyways, because we still are not allowed to talk about slavery other than in schools. People are afraid to have those conversations in the streets alone because they are afraid of how it will turn out. So they gather together in mass crowds and gangs. Screaming back and forth, refusing to listen to each other because I just don't want to hear it. Slavery is gone just let it go, I didn't own any slaves. How did they get slaves here take it up with that person.

Queen Isabella sponsored Christopher Columbus trip to what the aliens called a new world. It was a trip across the ocean to a land that was occupied and not claimed. The people there were friendly and welcoming it was part of their nature. They were close with the animal, very loving people, share and share more and more and it was never enough with these distant travelers who meant them harm.

Staying home has given me a new mind called my survival skills need to be improved. Find a way to have your very own business and keep all the proceeds, it's my hard work that earned it, I'm tired of others taking it with a system that only protects them all while we allow it because we want our cut too of stolen things and taken things and killing each other and drinking blood and eating and eating and eating anything is why I feel like we are in the colon of the galaxy of the universe we live in. The digestive system, or colon. We will eat anything and say it's acceptable. But is it a learned behavior or is it nature made and called survival.

The good owned people

 The good ones, see no evil hear no evil and you better not speak any evil. Tell nothing there will be nothing for you to worry about.

Keep your head down and move to the side, get out of my way when you see me coming. Many of us still suffer with that syndrome today. Some walk past as if you not there, women hold more doors than men, she also holds a lot of hands.

Women, women, woman don’t you hear me talking to you, you little gyp ass bitch, you ain’t going to amount to nothing you little whore. Now after about right here, I don’t remember what else she was saying, I do remember shut the hell up and get your lil ugly ass outside, if a man ever want you he has to be crazy. But you could not fuck with me like that. I brought you into this world and I will take you out. 

When will the healing began, we continue to walk with our head down all while holding others up. It’s time for us all to stand tall and walk. Walk with pride no matter the count of your pack. Packs are smaller because we can’t get along, our own children have to leave away from us or in my case can’t wait to leave the verbal and physical abuse and emotional, I’m praying hard to renew my spirit and my mind that I’m no longer hurt because of the past. Power to walk out of it and into something new with each day I’m given. Power to walk in faith that if I get up and go I will and can keep going. Power to run from the d word. And no not dick, I’m looking for the one who want to try and embark on an adventure into all the tomorrows we can pull from the hat of life. All them other D’s like dizziness, think I’m gone die. Depresion, I’m about to die. Diarrhea, oh I’m about to Die. If I faint not in my youth, shall the latter years offer more laughter and just the amount of rain and food and shelter, the same as you have been providing, strength by strength we go on, the strength from others may be few and far, but they do exist, so we have to keep going so we can help other to go on along. If we were meant to be we would not be here, big ups to my Mother, my moms for sparing my life before my creation. To my sperm donor I do understand the circumstances of you not being a part of my life and thanks for sparing my life, you validated me when you came to my job to meet me and introduce yourself to me and give me a phone number where I could reach out to you. Thank you for sending me the money I needed to get the transmission fixed in my van when I lived in Texas. I could not believe you did that, I was so afraid to ask you for the money, thanks for showing me love, thanks for three sisters I don’t have in my life, but I know they are there and don’t really want to get to know me at all, I’m ok, but not ok with that, I need balance there. My Daddy, my Father, my Pops, my Charlie, when I saw him coming it was on and popping, I was going to start running towards him yelling daddy, daddy. He would reach out and I would jump, soon I was to big to jump. My dad would often say to those who challenge what a dad is, my name on her birth certificate. That make me her my child. He never beat me not once, he never cussed at me but would say come on baby gal, calyn gal come on. I love and miss you and my mom. Thank you for the balance. 

We are all part of the struggle

 Blacks, Asians, Hispanics, Latino's, Jews, Israelites, Russians, Americans, Pakastians, German's, Haitians, Jamaicans, and all those who are born a human.

We struggle on a daily basis because we so separated by boundaries and languages and customs. Why are we so unwelcoming to others.

I bigotries and prejudices cause us to discriminate against other humans other people other men and women and children and elderly and fats and thins and homosexuals and blinds and sick and well and rich and poor and browns and slanted eyes and blue eyes and blond hair and the Spanish lady who just happened to be there on the bus along with me as I traveled to Covington to see about my daddy.

She said we, the lady beside me and myself, she accused of us not belonging in the good old US of A, the land of the free the home of the brave. Now as for me I can only speak for myself. I was born here in 1966 and so was my parents and so was their parents and so was my grandmother parents, now before that I'm not clear but my grandmother would often say we were from the Cherokee tribe. DNA proved her wrong, but I have only had one done, I do want a second opinion, by the mouth of two or three let ever word be established.

The other lady may have been born here as well, just because they are of Hispanic or latin heritage does not mean they were not born and raised upon these soils. The american lady then went on to say she was of african descent and we better not talk about her in spanish because she speak Spanish and African. Ok, I was still speechless and looked to my left at the lady who smiled at me and I then looked back at the lady, thinking I'm not Spanish, why is she yelling at me, but at that point I was glad to be Hispanic and not American. We have been so bitter towards others for no reason at all.

We have been verbally and physically abused so long we have learned how to hate and no longer love. The bible leads the way, how can you say you love !e if you will toss me into hell so I will burn forever more with no relief. And there are those living who want the same thing for others, b cause to hate and be brutal was the way of God so his followers are brutal without even knowing how brutal they really are.

We are all humans, but not all the same...